Chronicles of a Commitment-Phobe

“Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him and He will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun”
(Psalm 37:5, 6)

I took a baby step today toward pursuing my creative dreams. I purchased an e-book course chockfull of resources, tips, and links to jumpstart my writing and art “for real”. By this, I mean more than just playing around. Like seriously pursuing it…as my calling. I’ve officially crossed some kind of threshold from hobby to holy pursuit. And it’s a little scary. On page two, the author, Kelly Rae, said: “You’ve acknowledged your inspiration and passion by purchasing this book, but now I’m asking you to really commit”. (gulp)

Commit. Screeech! (that was the rubber hitting the road)

I lean more towards keeping my options open. Just see where it leads, you know? This is way too much fun to ruin with talk of commitment. I know what happens to married people. Dating dies. Along with all things fair and free; like silliness, sunshine, and googly-eyed affections. Right? Oh, I am just playing around now. Marriage is great! (really)

But you wanna know something weird about all this commitment talk? It is kind of having an opposite effect on me. I did have the flu last week but I think I am in my right mind now.  Excitement? Exhilaration? Fulfillment? I don’t know that I can name it exactly….yet. But I know it is good. And that’s enough for me. Baby steps are better than no steps. No steps feels like death to me. And this dream is too much in my heart to let it die. Moving more purposely into the vision for Faith Miner’s Daughter feels like I’ve tapped a creative goldmine.

All of this may sound odd to you. From your perspective, I’ve been “launched” for a year and a half into this Faith Miner journey. But I’ve definitely viewed it as more exploratory than purposeful. The more I write, the more I find my voice. Same with the art. Each piece is refining me. It really is like I am being unearthed; just like the mountain metaphor. I had NO idea how profound that was when I started this. But it is totally cool and invigorating and terrifying – all at the same time! I’m so glad God is more “with it” than me.

So, in the spirit of commitment, I opened an Etsy shop. I know, it’s crazy. And you know what else is nuts? I already made my first sale. I sold a painting! Somebody actually bought one of my paintings…and paid cash for it. Wow. But that wasn’t even the best part. I met the woman who bought it, and she told me the story behind why she did. The message of the piece was HOPE. She shared her struggle, and told me she bought it to remind herself daily to hope in God amidst her pain. What?! Are you kidding me?? God is SO AWESOME! Blessing like oil poured over me. My heart did a little joy dance. This is the very essence of what “take heART” is all about! A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.

This is my newest painting. Her name is “Faith” and she is available for sale in my shop. You might notice her body looks kind of like a mountain. That was on purpose. This whole idea of getting us moving by faith is what she conveys. The key and butterfly are symbolic of this. So are the blooming flowers over her heart and in her hair. Deep, right? I hope she speaks deeply and meaningfully to someone out there who needs the reminder that, with a small seed of faith, we can move mountains! We change, grow, and bloom into the beauties God created us to be in Christ! DSCN2062crop

To visit my Etsy shop, follow this link:
You can also get to my Etsy shop anytime from the “Take HeART” page of my website.

If I can commit, so can you. Where is God calling you to step out in faith? Toward the vision He has for your life. What blessing is He waiting to break forth over you? Commit your way to the Lord and you’ll shine like the noonday sun. There’s no stopping us now! Go ahead, take that baby step today. You will be SO glad you did!

One thought on “Chronicles of a Commitment-Phobe

  1. Congratulations! That is awesome! I can’t wait to see how God is going to use you and your many gifts! <3

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